Saturday, June 5, 2010

♪ Here I Go Again♪

"To live would be an awfully big adventure." -Peter Pan
Okay, so he may only be twelve (for the 100th time) but Peter Pan is right! Life is a big adventure full of unknowns that can be scary or exciting or both! Right now I'm feeling both...

I'm a planner. I like to plan things month by month, week by week, day by day, hour by hour, etc. If I don't, I don't feel secure so I'm currently scared out of my mind for December after I graduate; and I worry now because it'll be here before I know it & I like to plan things by at least a year ahead haha! I constantly am thinking of questions....
- Where am I going to move to? (FL? CA? NY? Who Knows, I Don't! I just know that I'm up for anything!)
- Am I going to get the Disney Professional Internship? (wont find out until 2/3 months before I would have to move)
- Will I be able to afford to live on my own? (doubtful, with my luck I'll have to live at home until I have enough money)
These questions & many more are driving me crazy!?! And the answers I want are of course are unrealistic, but a girl can dream right? but I need to be realistic I'm going out into the real world soon ahhhh!!!

Sometimes I feel like I'm stuck on a treadmill walking in the same place without any sort of proof that I'm moving forward, but I'm done w/that feeling. I'm going to take bigger steps & get out of my comfort zone and take a nice jog in an unfamiliar, but beautiful area in life that will let me continue to move on until I want to take a quick rest stop to check out the scenery.

Yes I'm still talking about my life (I would never actually take a jog just for the hell of it HAHA!) My point being, I'm ready to move on with my life & not doing the same thing over and over again. I have amazing things going for me right now, especially one specific part of it and there are things I don't want to change, but I need to get out of WV & stay out of WV. I need to be done w/school & never look back, I am ready to move on and have a real life, I want to go on adventures & explore the world, I want to live my life w/no regrets, but financially I can't do anything that I really want so I'm worried about that.

Okay now I sound like I'm whining, I promise I'm not, I'm just looking forward to what life has for me, now lets just hope I take the correct paths that'll lead to success. I think that if I follow my heart & my gut I'll be just fine ... right?? =)

"I don't know where I'm goin but I sure know where I've been hanging on the promises in songs of yesterday. An' I've made up my mind, I ain't wasting no more time but here I go again, here I go again."


☮ & ♥
-RJ

Song: Here I Go Again - Whitesnake

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