Tuesday, June 22, 2010

♪ Part Of Your World ♪

Things I'd like to do...
- Go on a cruise
- Be a mom
- Travel the world
- Be a wedding planner for Disney
- Live in Europe
- Swim with Dolphins
- Work for a non-profit agency
- Stay at every Disney World resort for at least 1 night
- Write & publish a book
- Become an Au Pair...??

Yes that is right. There are many things I want to do in my life, but recently I've decided that I want to become an Au Pair.

This seems a little random, No? Yes, I guess you can say it is. Let me explain...
My whole life, no exaggeration, I have dreamt of living in Europe. Yes of course I've wanted to visit Europe since I was in 2nd grade, but as I've gotten older I've been wanting to live there for at least a semester or a year so I can really be immersed in the culture.

Yea, Yea, Yea, I may seem a little crazy, but in order to make that happen I need to either:
A) Study Abroad
B) Teach English Abroad
C) Marry a European guy
D) Move out there and try to find an English speaking job
or E) Become an Au Pair
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A) I'm soooo over school. I've seriously looked into it, but I just can't do it anymore.
B) I'm not cut out to be a teacher. It's not my thing and I would hate my life.
C) It's not as easy as getting a Green Card in the US, plus I morally can't do that.
D) I would do that in a heartbeat, however, I'm broke.
and E) I love kids, but only if it's not a big group of them, 2-4 I can handle, but more I'd die.

Sooooo looking at my 5 options, the most logical one would be choice E.
As an Au Pair, host families generally pay for airfare, health insurance, language school, gas for driving, vacations with the family (usually international trips), some families give extra money for weekend trips, they let the AP have 2-6 weeks of vacation time, and of course there is the weekly pay. All of that just to take care of their kids!?! Sounds pretty perfect eh?? (Yes I just said "eh". No I'm not Canadian, I just happen to say that alot lol)

Well here are the negatives of this perfect sounding job: Waking up early, Changing diapers, Driving kids to and from school, Cooking, Light housework, Moody kids, Hyper kids, Bratty kids, Bathing the children, Reading them stories, Constantly entertaining the kids...

Oh wait! Those aren't really negatives! I want to be a mom someday so this, I guess, could be a test round since I can return them at the end of the night haha. I guess the real negatives are the culture shock, having to make new friends, getting over being a picky eater, missing family, pets, & friends, and of course the language barrier.

You know what... I'm ready. I need a change and I am crazy enough to pick up my things and leave for a year (minimum).

When I told my parents about this I was expecting them to be like "Disney! Disney! Disney! Disney!" cause I was planning on applying for a Disney Professional Internship, but I'm 22 and once I graduate, if I get a job or internship that could lead to a job, I'm stuck. I wont have opportunities like this, to go abroad, unless I get a traveling job, but what are the odds of that? And then when/if I have a family of my own there's no way I'd leave them to go on adventures like this (unless it's a family vacation abroad haha)

Plus, it's not what anyone would expect of me, which excites me, doing something out of the ordinary, taking the next step, or jump to something extraordinary. And when I'm old, with grandkids, I want to be able to tell them about my adventures and be able to say that I lived in Europe for X amount of time as an Au Pair or even just telling people about it sounds fancy hehe!
My thinking is... If I'm meant to work for Disney, it'll happen, I just want to live a little, have adventures, and really experience life before I have to settle down into anything in my life.

Now when my parents said they fully support the idea I was completely shocked and very happy! BUT I knew there was a "catch". They said they'd support this whole thing if I was an Au Pair in the UK or Ireland for my first year and then a second year I could go elsewhere so I wont have as much of a culture shock my first time around. FIRST I didn't even think about a year two, I'm still working on year one and SECOND, I'm gonna go where I get the best money, benefits, and the least amount of kids! =P I would love to go somewhere not in the UK because I want to be fully immersed in a completely different culture (and language). It will be rough, but I think it would be one of the best experiences for me.

So that was a pretty long explanation, but hey whatever it was fun to type it all up and share my newest adventure with everyone (if people actually read this). Saying it out loud/typing it reassures me that I want to do this. Talking about it more gets me excited and hopeful. =) I guess this is my newest dream that I will make happen. haha!

I would love to be "Part Of Your World" so Europe, watch out 'cause here I come!! =)

☮ & ♥

Song: Part of Your World - Little Mermaid

Sunday, June 20, 2010

♪ When You Wish Upon A Star ♪

So I fell in love got hurt and wrote a song and it's quite blunt. I have a verrrrry rough recording of it, that I wont share until it's perfect but here are the lyrics... (and I promise it's better with music)

"What You'll Be Missing"

Verse 1:

It didn’t take long for me to see

What I was truly feeling

You made my heart beat so fast

I felt a love that I know could last

If you let it and take the chance


I’ve never met a love quite like yours

Your honesty never fails to please me

Your smile makes me yearn to be yours

But your fear is too empowering

Oh baby, can’t you see what you’ll be missing

Verse 2:

I know that the human touch

Is quite a necessity

But knowing that my love is all yours

Should really make you see

That I would never hurt you

And that’s all that you should need right now

Verse 3:

Anyways, yes I agree that the miles are too far away

But not having you as mine bring me much more pain

The fact that you’re too scared to try us makes me

Think that you’re too worried about your pride, baby


I’ve never met a love quite like yours

Your honesty never fails to please me

Your smile makes me yearn to be yours

But your fear is too empowering

Oh baby, can’t you see what you’ll be missing


I’ve never smiled so much for so long

I know my heart will long to be with you

I’ll always compare them to you

Even though you were never mine

I don’t know why I put up with this

My heart’s breaking

I know that you’re lying to yourself

Chorus 2:

I never want to be without you

You’re the one that I adore

My heart wont settle till you know what I’m feeling

But you wont open up that door

And let me in to show you what you could be with


I’ve never met a love quite like yours

Your honesty never fails to please me

Your smile makes me yearn to be yours

But your fear is too empowering

Oh baby, can’t you see what you’ll be missing

But it’s too late to see what you are missing

Now when it comes to life (and I guess love) some may call me a dreamer and think that stuff like this only comes true in dreams, but they couldn't be more wrong!! If it weren't for your dreams and ideas and thoughts, you wouldn't even think about the many different possibilities. If you want those dreams to come true you need to be stubborn and persistent and make them come true!! For example... Invisible Children, a non profit organization trying to end child slavery in Uganda. First, 3 young men dreamt about the idea 7 years later Obama signed a bill to help!! (which btw I was a part of... I went to DC and lobbied for the bill haha) Anyways Dreaming about ending child slavery wasn't just a dream to these guys and the people who helped, it was a real possibility. All you need is to have the courage to pursue it!!! That sounds familiar huh?? This might be why:

“All your dreams can come true if you have the courage to pursue them" -Walt Disney

Here's another fitting quote: "Life isn’t about waiting for the storm to pass; it’s about getting out there and dancing in the rain." -Anonymous

So if you ever find yourself really wanting a dream of yours to come true, don't ever hesitate to make them happen. Just realize that it's possible, be confident, and even when you're not confident just think about your passion for that dream and don't give up. Go out there, proudly dance and sing in the rain (rain/storm aka the things that might make it seem impossible for this dream to come true; for example: lack of money or the distance or the government, etc it can be anything that could block you from reaching your goal)... Don't just go out in the storm to sing and dance though; jump in the puddles, have fun, and let yourself get soaked in the idea and the real possibility of it coming true. That's how I live my life everyday. That's why I don't give up easily on something I truly want or believe in. I just wish more people believed in this mindset.

I hope my ramblings helped some of you if you happen to have any doubts about goals and dreams. I don't think anyone actually reads my blogs, but hey I always feel better expressing my thoughts and hopefully the many experiences I have had will help others be brave enough to pursue their dreams??

Lastly, don't just wish upon a star, get in a rocket ship and tell the star yourself! =P



Song: When You Wish Upon A Star - Pinnochio

Saturday, June 5, 2010

♪ Here I Go Again♪

"To live would be an awfully big adventure." -Peter Pan
Okay, so he may only be twelve (for the 100th time) but Peter Pan is right! Life is a big adventure full of unknowns that can be scary or exciting or both! Right now I'm feeling both...

I'm a planner. I like to plan things month by month, week by week, day by day, hour by hour, etc. If I don't, I don't feel secure so I'm currently scared out of my mind for December after I graduate; and I worry now because it'll be here before I know it & I like to plan things by at least a year ahead haha! I constantly am thinking of questions....
- Where am I going to move to? (FL? CA? NY? Who Knows, I Don't! I just know that I'm up for anything!)
- Am I going to get the Disney Professional Internship? (wont find out until 2/3 months before I would have to move)
- Will I be able to afford to live on my own? (doubtful, with my luck I'll have to live at home until I have enough money)
These questions & many more are driving me crazy!?! And the answers I want are of course are unrealistic, but a girl can dream right? but I need to be realistic I'm going out into the real world soon ahhhh!!!

Sometimes I feel like I'm stuck on a treadmill walking in the same place without any sort of proof that I'm moving forward, but I'm done w/that feeling. I'm going to take bigger steps & get out of my comfort zone and take a nice jog in an unfamiliar, but beautiful area in life that will let me continue to move on until I want to take a quick rest stop to check out the scenery.

Yes I'm still talking about my life (I would never actually take a jog just for the hell of it HAHA!) My point being, I'm ready to move on with my life & not doing the same thing over and over again. I have amazing things going for me right now, especially one specific part of it and there are things I don't want to change, but I need to get out of WV & stay out of WV. I need to be done w/school & never look back, I am ready to move on and have a real life, I want to go on adventures & explore the world, I want to live my life w/no regrets, but financially I can't do anything that I really want so I'm worried about that.

Okay now I sound like I'm whining, I promise I'm not, I'm just looking forward to what life has for me, now lets just hope I take the correct paths that'll lead to success. I think that if I follow my heart & my gut I'll be just fine ... right?? =)

"I don't know where I'm goin but I sure know where I've been hanging on the promises in songs of yesterday. An' I've made up my mind, I ain't wasting no more time but here I go again, here I go again."

☮ & ♥

Song: Here I Go Again - Whitesnake